Never has there been a greater earthly gift given to a man than the blessing of a family. I am truly blessed. Since getting married life has been a whirlwind of change. Carrie and I have taken on new tasks, and new vocations in ministry. We’ve remodeled our house and officially made the “Bachelor pad” I had previous inhabited a place suitable to raise a family. Finally we have taken on the greatest task in all of humanity, being entrusted with a human life. This has been the cause of much recent excitement.
Wednesday we finally had the long awaited sonogram, revealing the sex of our baby. Though the gender of my child never really mattered much to me, I had felt strongly that it was going to be a boy. So much so that in my head for whatever reason, I had always just assumed it was a boy. Even in the waiting room at the hospital I was excited but calm, because for whatever reason I was sure it was a boy; and I was so happy to have a boy.
Carrie and I walked into the tiny, dimly lit room. The nurse lifted up Carrie’s shirt, exposing her beautifully round pregnant stomach. She smeared a blue gel all over her belly, then pressed the sonogram instrument down over the gel with a force that made me nervous at first. Instantly on the monitor above appeared the most beautiful silhouette I had ever seen
It’s unexplainable how quickly tears can form in your eyes at the sight of your un-born child. One doesn’t think it’ll be a big deal, you think it’ll just be another moment to go into the mental catalog of cool moments like when I watched the Diamondback wins the World Series, or witnessed young people I had been mentoring give their life to the Lord. I figured this would be one of those times; I was wrong. That little moving baby on the black and white screen become the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. The most stunning event I had ever witnessed. I was beside myself.
The nurse ask if we wanted to know the sex of the child. Carrie and I both excitedly assured her that we wanted to know. She then looked at us and said: “Looks like it’s a Girl”.
AAAHHH! Mush I became! I couldn’t believe it! I made her check 3 or 4 more times, surely she had made a mistake. She was positive, it was a girl. This bit of news changed everything. Instead of thinking about sports games, and backyard army forts, the attention turned to tea parties and pretty hair bows. I’m enough of a softy already,but knowing that I’m getting to raise a little girl is going to only increase the mushiness of my heart!
We walked out of the office, out to our car, without turning it on just sat their with huge smiles on our faces. We weren’t quite able to get words out, the shock and excitement of having a girl just left us speechless. Finally we started calling family to tell them the news. I was undone.
Girls are just precious. I can’t wait to schedule “date nights with dad”. I can’t wait to braid her hair. I can’t wait to help her find and walk in the destiny God has for her. I can’t wait for the day to come along when boys are asking for her number and I get to, in holy righteous zeal, scare the living daylights out of them. I can’t wait to cry at her wedding when I give her away, and complete my task. I can’t wait to be her dad.
So to you Natalie, even before you are born; I love you!