There are times when I’m afraid to talk to the Lord. The times I have struggled most with God, and sin over the 29 years of my journey can be traced back to a paralysing fear of talking to God. In those moments my fear is not what God would say to me, but that he wouldn’t respond at all. Occasionally I would be in times of great need, but I would be slow to go to God out of fear that he wouldn’t help me. Fear is a powerful evil that can shake us to the core.Fear does more in most of us then just keep us from praying. Fear often becomes the driving force behind most decisions. Fear of failure, fear of missing out on something, fear of a person’s opinion, fear of meeting a person’s expectation’s and so on. Fear keeps us from action. Keeps us from running to a God who loves us. It has often kept men from loving women. Its kept Parents from enjoying their children, dreamers from living their dreams, visionaries from casting vision, and humanity from returning the love of their creator. But fear is not a force within it self. Fear is the product of a greater problem: an absence of love.
“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us.” – IJn 4:18-19
We are created beings who were designed to live and be fueled by the love of our creator. Sin separated us from being able to receive that love, as sin itself is a rejecting of that love. Sin carved a chasm in our hearts that had to be filled to function at all. The absence of love has caused us to create our own faux version. Our greatest desire became to exalt, fulfill, and please ourselves and the love of self became the highest level of fulfillment. This results in us being the makers and controllers of our own destiny, our lives became about our own glory.
However we were created for the glory of another. The love of self and living to glorify ourselves and other humans means the whole of our life’s energy is wasted trying to swim up a stream that will inevitably overtake us. The very nature of our life and existence is at the leisure of our creator and we were fashioned perfectly to be trophies for His glory. When we seek to glorify ourselves over God we go against the very nature of our existence.
Fear is the fruit of trying to glorify ourselves. It is the paralyzing force that desires to maintain control of a destiny we were never meant to control. The fear that keeps people from pursuing the talents and gifts that have been to us given by God to glorify God, is the same fear that kept me from running to God when I ought to of in the past. However when we receive the love of God, offered in clearest form at the cross and cease the rejecting of it through sin, we cure ourselves of the paralysis of fear.
The love of God is a force that pushes us to the edge of the unknown and reaches out it’s hand and says “Jump! You can trust me.” It gives us courage as it plots out an eternal destiny for us. It gives us an absolute hope that we will never be alone, and ultimately never feel the struggles of this life one day. It gives us a reason to live and a reason to love other people.To the measure that we struggle with fear is the measure that we have not been perfected in love.
First Commandment: “Love the Lord God with all of your heart, soul, mind and strength.”